`Tuesday, December 07, 2004;__
last time i gonna get hurt i promise.
once again i got hurt deeply
i cried .. and i promised myself
this time is gonna be the last time
really very very very last time
i cry bcos of u .. no more tears. i promise!
i jus need alcohol to get myself drunk,
get away from this cruel reality,
and i dun wanna feel the pain, no more.
is jus too much for me i cant take it...
my broken heart is bleedin...
u hate to hurt someone!
but why ? why do u hurt me
so deeply? i cant take it anymore.
i need to get away from all these.
i hate my life! it jus suckz big time.
u gave stupid reason and u wan
me to accept it. i jus cant.
everyday i regret! regret tt
y am i so stupid to make such
stupid decision in the first place.
i regret sayin tt first. i regret .
yea and i really regret doin tt!
every time i hear ur name
the memories cum back again!
i keep closin my eyes but
i jus cant block u out!
baby i miss ya far too much.
and now i realised i cant live w/o u.
is jus to late . u will nvr be mine
again! and the next time i see u.
u will be holdin someone else
hand and pass by infront of me.
that someone never gonna be me again!
i left u in the first place and now
i wanna get u back ? wad logic is this?
Huijuan u gotta wake up mann.
hes nvr gonna be urs anymore!
yeash i didnt appreciate things
and now they r gone i'm cryin here..
well serve me right i guess!
cant blame anybody now..
i hate myself! yea i really do!
-message for him-
haiz hopefully u gonna
visit my blog soon.
forget abt everything i said last
nite. pretent tt i nvr say anything!
i guess u'r rite, we shall remain
as frens or if u treat me as ur best
fren. i dun wish to distract u ,
dun wish to divert ur relationship with god!
tts wad u said.. and i dun wish to get
hurt again. coz is jus too much
and i cant take it anymore!
u said i dun understand how u feel
coz i'm not a christian! boii i am
a christian jus tt i am NOT a good one!
haiz useless sayin all tt now!
so let us jus concentrate on our
studies and stuff... and hopefully u
gonna remember me as ur best fren
for life. if u have any problems
hopefully i gonna be the first fren
tt u reach out for help and i promise
i'll always be there for u !
though some times i might not
be able to help u but yea i wud still
try my best. be it in family problems,
relationship or even frenship.
i will alway be there for u.
take care my dear fren,
best of luck in wadever u do!
may all ur wishes cum true for ya!
see ya!
yups i assume tt u didnt
receive my sms coz u didnt reply!
so yea hopefully u gonna read my blog!
-all tears fall forever inside a brokenheart-
- i guess i'm a fool for thinkin tt ur're thinkin of me -
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 6:37 PM;__
